I have learned that actually I like to be considered as a nice guy. It's nice to feel that I've helped someone and I have add value to one's life.
As I went into management role, sometimes I have to make hard decision, I end up hurting someone, or sometimes I just can't do a thing. And then I think I am not so nice anymore.
Anyway a sorely needed analysis from my side shows ... Hmmm to add value, doesn't mean that someone have to like me. Or to rephrase... it doesn't mean that someone have to feel that I have helped him.
Add value means reproving, add value means helping, add value means coaching, add value means a lot of thing...
And add value didn't have to mean ... I make them feel good ...
Still so hard to do ... thus i thought .... am I becoming co dependent ?
I hope not ... need to teach this dog a new trick ... on how to add value based on what I believe and doing it in a mindful, compassionate way.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Rebooting
BONG! Finally .... the time to shut down my system has just come. It has been a very long running system ... sometimes it ran smoothly, sometimes shaky, bumpy, or even breaking down until it needed an overhaul.
Lately it was looking great but I just realized that the engine has been running too long ... I felt that if I pushed it to run any longer, it could break in the middle of a "hard run process" and it could screw up the whole system. It is near to its lifetime limit ... so I think it is also the time to replace the engine.
Some processes have been done in the workshop. Some experts have tried to upgrade that, but well, it didn't work. Some people have tried to tweak, work around the system here and there .. but still it didn't work. Until up to the decision that we really need to replace the engine. It was not an easy decision to come up with. The engine has been helping me a lot going through some fires. This engine also stores so many great things that make me even harder to release it. But, this is really the time to replace the engine ... what a man has got to do is what a man has got to do ... it's really been running too long. This is really the right time to change the engine.
Well ... it is now time to reboot my system again ... with the new engine! So wish me luck!
Lately it was looking great but I just realized that the engine has been running too long ... I felt that if I pushed it to run any longer, it could break in the middle of a "hard run process" and it could screw up the whole system. It is near to its lifetime limit ... so I think it is also the time to replace the engine.
Some processes have been done in the workshop. Some experts have tried to upgrade that, but well, it didn't work. Some people have tried to tweak, work around the system here and there .. but still it didn't work. Until up to the decision that we really need to replace the engine. It was not an easy decision to come up with. The engine has been helping me a lot going through some fires. This engine also stores so many great things that make me even harder to release it. But, this is really the time to replace the engine ... what a man has got to do is what a man has got to do ... it's really been running too long. This is really the right time to change the engine.
Well ... it is now time to reboot my system again ... with the new engine! So wish me luck!
Friday, March 28, 2008
A VERY LUCKY DAY .............. NOT !!!!!
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: Murphy's law in action
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: kudu signing cepet
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: orang CSO lelet
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: udah di print semua, mo ke minamas
Meddie: kenapa?
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: karcis parkir ilang
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: udah diksaiin semua mo di sign ?
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: ada yang salah ....
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: signing pagenya belon berubah
Meddie: ya elah ... trus gimana tuh
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: terus udah update cari info ke atas mo update si Lia ....
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: PULSA GUE ABIS .... hp yang satu lagi ketinggalan
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: berasa kaya henrison :-D
Meddie: :-)
Meddie: :-D
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: mo beli pulsa
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: LUPA NO HP
Meddie: :-D
Meddie: lengkap bener
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: mo telpon cari tau ... ke istri (satu2nya) ... pulsa tak cukup :-D
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: arrghh
Welll at least they sign 4 out of 5 ... now to chase 1 for monday ....
GOO GOO GOO GOOO !!!!
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: kudu signing cepet
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: orang CSO lelet
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: udah di print semua, mo ke minamas
Meddie: kenapa?
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: karcis parkir ilang
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: udah diksaiin semua mo di sign ?
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: ada yang salah ....
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: signing pagenya belon berubah
Meddie: ya elah ... trus gimana tuh
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: terus udah update cari info ke atas mo update si Lia ....
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: PULSA GUE ABIS .... hp yang satu lagi ketinggalan
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: berasa kaya henrison :-D
Meddie: :-)
Meddie: :-D
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: mo beli pulsa
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: LUPA NO HP
Meddie: :-D
Meddie: lengkap bener
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: mo telpon cari tau ... ke istri (satu2nya) ... pulsa tak cukup :-D
Andrian Purnama/Indonesia/IBM: arrghh
Welll at least they sign 4 out of 5 ... now to chase 1 for monday ....
GOO GOO GOO GOOO !!!!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Mixed emotions
Have mixed emotions today...
I am currently sitting in starbucks drinkin coffee and eating sadwich. I am unable to talk. The throat is sore, i lost my voice about 2-3 hours ago and have this terrible headache. i went here to buy fgtrotces something to alleviate my throat.
Office matters is ok today after some haywire several days back. Find that i hv too many monkey (actually a zoo pool of crittens).
a best friend said he's leaving and tho i really glad for his undertaking, therse a twinge of sadness as we're going to be fighting in different boats now.
how come i feel peace also ya? out of the up and down the roller coaster ride?
if i am goin to reflect? wha lesson will i took over these happening
some may suggest detachment. vut i feel ejoyment. maybe because i enjoy the turmoil.
now if only my daughter nanny would cancel her resination
I am currently sitting in starbucks drinkin coffee and eating sadwich. I am unable to talk. The throat is sore, i lost my voice about 2-3 hours ago and have this terrible headache. i went here to buy fgtrotces something to alleviate my throat.
Office matters is ok today after some haywire several days back. Find that i hv too many monkey (actually a zoo pool of crittens).
a best friend said he's leaving and tho i really glad for his undertaking, therse a twinge of sadness as we're going to be fighting in different boats now.
how come i feel peace also ya? out of the up and down the roller coaster ride?
if i am goin to reflect? wha lesson will i took over these happening
some may suggest detachment. vut i feel ejoyment. maybe because i enjoy the turmoil.
now if only my daughter nanny would cancel her resination
Monday, January 28, 2008
Decision and Sacrifices ...
Once upon in December ...
"I know you're safe now, but I think we need you ..."
"We're on probation for 1 year ... we are not sure yet"
"Will you do it ? ...."
"Yes ..."
Fast forward one year ...
"It's going to be very hard to justify ..."
"The measures numbers are bad ! ... "
"I appreciate what you've done ... but ..."
"OK ... it's all right ... it's a choice that I made"
It's scene that defines and end of my 2007 working year ...
What's the result ?
1. We still lose alot of them ...
2. We were not to be disbanded ...
3. We are positive now ...
4. We are a cohesive tight unit bars one ...
5. I missed a lot of my measurement ...
Four We's and one I, if you're talking about results ... It haven't been one of my stellar years if you're talking about results. It will not be as good as I hoped ... if you're talking about me financially ...
But ... I wouldn't have it any other way ...
As coach John Wooden (10 times NCAA champs) would say ..."It's not about winning ... It's the process we've gone through to win ... Winning is the icing ... the process is the cake ..."
I would not be satisfied just with eating the icing ... I would be content with the cake without icing ...
Icing would make it extra delicious though ...
It was the year defining decision I made, and I am glad I enjoyed the process ... So I'm not really disappointed with the result.
"I know you're safe now, but I think we need you ..."
"We're on probation for 1 year ... we are not sure yet"
"Will you do it ? ...."
"Yes ..."
Fast forward one year ...
"It's going to be very hard to justify ..."
"The measures numbers are bad ! ... "
"I appreciate what you've done ... but ..."
"OK ... it's all right ... it's a choice that I made"
It's scene that defines and end of my 2007 working year ...
What's the result ?
1. We still lose alot of them ...
2. We were not to be disbanded ...
3. We are positive now ...
4. We are a cohesive tight unit bars one ...
5. I missed a lot of my measurement ...
Four We's and one I, if you're talking about results ... It haven't been one of my stellar years if you're talking about results. It will not be as good as I hoped ... if you're talking about me financially ...
But ... I wouldn't have it any other way ...
As coach John Wooden (10 times NCAA champs) would say ..."It's not about winning ... It's the process we've gone through to win ... Winning is the icing ... the process is the cake ..."
I would not be satisfied just with eating the icing ... I would be content with the cake without icing ...
Icing would make it extra delicious though ...
It was the year defining decision I made, and I am glad I enjoyed the process ... So I'm not really disappointed with the result.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Rampok ... rampok ... (sebuah blog dengan mengikuti tata bahasa dan EYD)
Seorang konsultan ganteng sedang menyetir mobil gagah berwarna coklat .....
Supaya cepat masuk jalur busway ....
Lewatlah seorang pengendara motor.....
"Ah ... ini kan modus biasa ... masak aku bisa terjebak " kata si konsultan ganteng
"tok tok tok" pintu mobil diketok ... ban belakang kanan ditunjuk ..... oleh pengendara motor kedua ...
"Wah ... jangan jangan bener nih ... aku pulang dulu deh, cek, toch dekat ...", si konsultan ganteng berpikir dengan sehat
"tok tok tok" pintu mobil diketok ... ban belakang kanan ditunjuk ..... oleh pengendara motor KETIGA ...
"Waduh .... jangan-jangan ban udah mo copot ... setooooppp setoooppp setoooppp...." pikir sang konsultan ganteng dengan gaya Emon catatan si boy ...
Dipilihlah lokasi dekat halte (kan rame) ... konsultan ganteng turun ...
"Pak ... itu ban nya goyang soalnya bla bl bl abl bla bla bla bala" ada pengendara motor ke empat membantu sang konsultan mengecek ban.....
"@%#$@*#@!@!# beeep beep beeeppp (karena blog ini mungkin dibaca anak anak atau mereka yang bermental anak anak atau mereka yang mengaku anak anak atau bocah ... maka di sensor sedikit) aku terkelabui !!!!" konsultan ganteng menyumpah-nyumpah .... Ketika balik ke depan pintu udah dibuka
" %$#%!@$#@ (karena blog ini mungkin dibaca anak anak atau mereka yang bermental anak anak atau mereka yang mengaku anak anak atau bocah ... maka di sensor sedikit) mau apa manusia manusia di halte itu kemari, aku sudah dikelabui kok tidak butuh aku belas kasihan mereka" pikir sang konsultan ganteng sambil ride off to sunset ....
Konsultan ganteng amat menyesal karena penyimpan data eksternal yang berisi salinan data data pekerjaan selama 9 tahun, ada di dalam tas itu (baru saja dimasukkan dalam tas paginya)
Yah nasib, tapi karena konsultan ganteng adalah pahlawan gagah perkasa, maka dia melihat kedepan dan mencoba menjalin rajutan karirnya kembali ...
Bagaimana caranya ya ???? ...
Supaya cepat masuk jalur busway ....
Lewatlah seorang pengendara motor.....
"Ah ... ini kan modus biasa ... masak aku bisa terjebak " kata si konsultan ganteng
"tok tok tok" pintu mobil diketok ... ban belakang kanan ditunjuk ..... oleh pengendara motor kedua ...
"Wah ... jangan jangan bener nih ... aku pulang dulu deh, cek, toch dekat ...", si konsultan ganteng berpikir dengan sehat
"tok tok tok" pintu mobil diketok ... ban belakang kanan ditunjuk ..... oleh pengendara motor KETIGA ...
"Waduh .... jangan-jangan ban udah mo copot ... setooooppp setoooppp setoooppp...." pikir sang konsultan ganteng dengan gaya Emon catatan si boy ...
Dipilihlah lokasi dekat halte (kan rame) ... konsultan ganteng turun ...
"Pak ... itu ban nya goyang soalnya bla bl bl abl bla bla bla bala" ada pengendara motor ke empat membantu sang konsultan mengecek ban.....
"@%#$@*#@!@!# beeep beep beeeppp (karena blog ini mungkin dibaca anak anak atau mereka yang bermental anak anak atau mereka yang mengaku anak anak atau bocah ... maka di sensor sedikit) aku terkelabui !!!!" konsultan ganteng menyumpah-nyumpah .... Ketika balik ke depan pintu udah dibuka
" %$#%!@$#@ (karena blog ini mungkin dibaca anak anak atau mereka yang bermental anak anak atau mereka yang mengaku anak anak atau bocah ... maka di sensor sedikit) mau apa manusia manusia di halte itu kemari, aku sudah dikelabui kok tidak butuh aku belas kasihan mereka" pikir sang konsultan ganteng sambil ride off to sunset ....
Konsultan ganteng amat menyesal karena penyimpan data eksternal yang berisi salinan data data pekerjaan selama 9 tahun, ada di dalam tas itu (baru saja dimasukkan dalam tas paginya)
Yah nasib, tapi karena konsultan ganteng adalah pahlawan gagah perkasa, maka dia melihat kedepan dan mencoba menjalin rajutan karirnya kembali ...
Bagaimana caranya ya ???? ...
Friday, January 04, 2008
Kumpul Bocah di Rumah Handoyo
Kenapa disebut "Kumpul Bocah" ?
Simply karena kelakuan kita yang nggak pernah dewasa kalau udah ngumpul.
Begitulah yang kejadian ketika kita rame2 ngumpul di Rumah Handoyo tanggal 14 December 2007 lalu. Kalau di liat2 fotonya sih ... semua udah nggak ada yang IMUT lagi. Tapi kalau dilihat kelakukannya nggak ada yang berwibawa sama sekali.
Sebagai bocah, as usual kita ngerepotin yang punya rumah juga ... dalam hal ini Handoyo. Mulai dari ngotor2in dan merubah tata letak pernik2 di meja tamu nya karena makanan2 yang over-supplied ... sampai ngerepotin Handoyo dalam proses penyajian makanan2 yang kita bawa ... belum terhitung proses KOTORISASI nya.
Tapi bukan Handoyo namanya , kalau tidak dengan lapang dada dan dengan senyum yang mengembang menerima kita apa adanya tanpa penyesalan (kalo penggalan terakhir cuma Handoyo kali yang bisa jawab).
Aktifitas ngumpul dimulai pukul 1100hr. Ketika gue dateng, trio Budi RikRik dan Danny sudah duluan sampai di rumah Handoyo. Satu persatu yang lain dateng - Henny, Meddie, Deddy, Mira , etc etc ...- .
Kalau biasanya sebuah acara ada aktifitas utamanya, ngumpul kali ini aktifitas utamanya adalah makan dan makan, ngobrol dan menyaksikan penampilan RikRik dengan show "bumi adalah medan magnet" yang terus terang bikin meriah suasana ...
Berikut beberapa picture yang udah dikomentarin ama Krytonian Idol.
Jadi kalo ada yang gak berkenan ... marahnya ama dia aja ... jangan ama gue :P
Ini di Kelapa Gading apa di Pasar Uler yah? hehehe ...
Anak2 Playgroup belajar berhitung ... liat tuh, gak ada yang kompak ... ada yg bilang "2", ada yg bilang "5" ... padahal jelas2 "10"!
Para Expat ... satunya dari luar negeri .. satunya luar angkasa .. hehehe, no offense ... gw ngga bilang yg mana loh!
The Carik's Angels!
Ini jadinya kalo motret "Cermin" ..
Perhatikan ketiga gambar di bawah ini ... apa yang sama??? Ekspresinya Tavitha .. hahaha ..
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Simply karena kelakuan kita yang nggak pernah dewasa kalau udah ngumpul.
Begitulah yang kejadian ketika kita rame2 ngumpul di Rumah Handoyo tanggal 14 December 2007 lalu. Kalau di liat2 fotonya sih ... semua udah nggak ada yang IMUT lagi. Tapi kalau dilihat kelakukannya nggak ada yang berwibawa sama sekali.Sebagai bocah, as usual kita ngerepotin yang punya rumah juga ... dalam hal ini Handoyo. Mulai dari ngotor2in dan merubah tata letak pernik2 di meja tamu nya karena makanan2 yang over-supplied ... sampai ngerepotin Handoyo dalam proses penyajian makanan2 yang kita bawa ... belum terhitung proses KOTORISASI nya.
Tapi bukan Handoyo namanya , kalau tidak dengan lapang dada dan dengan senyum yang mengembang menerima kita apa adanya tanpa penyesalan (kalo penggalan terakhir cuma Handoyo kali yang bisa jawab).
Aktifitas ngumpul dimulai pukul 1100hr. Ketika gue dateng, trio Budi RikRik dan Danny sudah duluan sampai di rumah Handoyo. Satu persatu yang lain dateng - Henny, Meddie, Deddy, Mira , etc etc ...- .
Kalau biasanya sebuah acara ada aktifitas utamanya, ngumpul kali ini aktifitas utamanya adalah makan dan makan, ngobrol dan menyaksikan penampilan RikRik dengan show "bumi adalah medan magnet" yang terus terang bikin meriah suasana ...
Berikut beberapa picture yang udah dikomentarin ama Krytonian Idol.
Jadi kalo ada yang gak berkenan ... marahnya ama dia aja ... jangan ama gue :P
Ini di Kelapa Gading apa di Pasar Uler yah? hehehe ...
Anak2 Playgroup belajar berhitung ... liat tuh, gak ada yang kompak ... ada yg bilang "2", ada yg bilang "5" ... padahal jelas2 "10"!
Para Expat ... satunya dari luar negeri .. satunya luar angkasa .. hehehe, no offense ... gw ngga bilang yg mana loh!
The Carik's Angels!
Ini jadinya kalo motret "Cermin" ..
Perhatikan ketiga gambar di bawah ini ... apa yang sama??? Ekspresinya Tavitha .. hahaha ..
HAPPY NEW YEAR
